class was canceled

my teachers mom had open heart surgery and is not doing well, so class was canceled this evening. I still have 26 on line test to take plus the post test which may be a compilations of tests, or it could just be one test.

but i have an above perfect score in sociology because i've had perfect scores plus bonus points. I have never been head of the class but it feels good, damn good

I think i am going to try to get my first book published, a poetry book, I have so much work to do on my grammar and word usage before i could attempt to go back and rewrite the first to chapters of the book i started

but i could go on and get some of my poetry published and start establishing myself 

GOOD MORNING

damn i dont even want to be awake, i'm so fucking tired, but i needed to do some studying which i'm probably not gonna do cause i'm writing instead.so jess is gonna go to my moms birthday dinner and then to the bar with me. I told her that we have six rooms reserved so she doesnt have to worry about driving home drunk.everyone else is either married or with someone and i didnt want to show up alone. oh and michelle, not psyco michelle but michelle rachels friend is trying to hook me up with her sister, i think its cute and funny at the same time, but her sister is pretty hot, i had a message from her last night she wanted to know my last name so she could be added to my friends on myspace. but all bull shit aside this is the longest i have ever been single, and i kinda enjoy it, its good to just worry about me for a change.

work and study work and study

well I have taken two tests this morning, after being at the college all night finishing both papers that are due this week. I have a huge problem with sentence fragments and not using adverbs.

On a better not, I met three hot ass nurses last night; well they are not nurses yet. But all of them will be nurses, before long. They are all done with their basics and now they are on the hard stuff.

I have been calling Amanda, but she still acts kind of rude and short with me

anyhow we are celebrating my moms fiftieth birthday this week end we are all going to steak and ale then the bar. We have six motel rooms reserved across the street from the bar; and best of all Chris is going to be there.

MORNING TIME AGAIN

well it is morning again and i have some on line tests to take for english, I am so exhausted though. I tried taking them last night before bed and was to tired so we will see how it goes this morning

gotta start typing

well I'm getting ready to start typing my essay but I was checking my e mails first and thought I'd drop a line or two in my journal, but honestly i've got nothing to say

home for lunch

getting ready to go back to work, i got an e mail from michelle apologizing for coming by and some more blah blah blah, anyways i got my essay wrote last night and now i just have to type it, my teacher says i should do it all on the computer, but I like the way a pen feels in my hand when i write my thoughts. it is so much more personal when you write rather than type.

seriously to me it is like the difference between fucking and making love

kind of strange but it is true to me writing is a personal passionate thing

so so tired

damn it i'm tired, but i would like to get at least one more body paragraph wrote tonight. I've got my intro and my first body paragraph wrote. Now I need to write two more body paragraphs and a conclusion

amanda didnt call today but I kind of expected that. I guess it does not matter; I have a land payment here and a durango payment here and I am not leaving off to go somewhere that I have nobody. Why would I do that, there is still just a part of me that wishes she would come here

SHE CALLED AGAIN

Amanda called me when she got home, and yes my heart did kinda skip a beat. For a time we were really happy, or at least I thought that we were. I cannot deny that I miss the hell out of her and the boys, and the happiness we shared.

So anyways i think that I have enough articles for the first part of my research essay on the cause and effects of child abuse and drug addiction, but right now im going to bed so good night cruel world

AMANDA CALLED

Amanda called this morning, at like six o'clock. when I saw that it was her, my heart skipped a beat. But I know better than to expect anything, it was just good to hear hers and the boys voices. well I better get this essay wrote

CAUSE AND EFFECT

    cause and effect

My next essay is on cause and effect. My essay is going to be on the causes and effects of drug addiction. I am however a little bit nervouse because I made a C on my last essay. I cannot allow myself to recieve another C.

damn

so my 4.0 in English is gonna be tricky I made a 78 on my essay but i made a 97 on my test and a 80 on my second test but i've got like 150 bonus points accumulated. well I guess that only time will tell. All I know is i'm given it hell, doing my best, and I will get what ever grade I get. I just really want to acheive the goal that I set.

4.0

so i ensured my 4.0 in sociology tonight now all i have to focus on is my English and so far so good

well on my way

so I am still doing extremely well academically, I am not going to say that sometimes I am not overwhelmed but I handle those times and so far have had no troubles meeting my deadlines and still getting my 40 in at work. My social life is at a stand still however; with work and school there is not much time for socializing, or going out on dates.But the truth is, it is better that I don't have much free time, and all women have done in my life is cause problems and heartaches, so really it is for the best. So those that pray over me keep praying and those that hate on me keep hating

OVERWHELMING

this 4.0 is gonna be hella tough but i just have to do it, i just did some on line test for english and i aced a bunch of them but i made a 60 on one and 80 percent on two of them, but grades like 60 percent will devastate a 4.0 anyways all i can do is study and pray, pray, and study

aside from stressing on my g.p.a i really do love college, and my lil sister has shown an interest in it and i think that is good and i hope that we can persuade her to take her education more serious than we did.

good night cruel world may the peace and spirit of the EVERLASTING GOD befall on you while you sleep

if we would have made it

well we are aproaching the holiday of love valentines day, and like this time last year i am still single; but unlike last year i am far from being a broken hearted man i am doing great. I am an honor student in college i have a decent job and i am drug free.

every once in a while i talk to amanda, but not often at all and just borderline on even being a pleasant conversation. I am not even sure why i say hi every time i see her on but i do. anyways back to the books for me

LIFE ISNT IT FUNNY

you know how funny life is and how things change, how a man can go from being a high school drop out to an honor student in college. life is really good for me right now. i work hard and study just as hard cause i  know that i have a bright fiture ahead of me making good money and doing something that i love so much i would do for free, and thats help people, plus going to college is helping my writing quite a bit. any ways i have to go study chapters 8 and 9 for a quiz on thursday peace

on the right track

so i took my first test in english and i think that i aced it there were three questions that i had to think on an i could have missed one or all of them but i think i aced it a 4.0 is going to be hard to accomplish and i sure hope that i can do it, one thing that i know for sure is that i truly believe in my self and i know  i have a shot, and im taking it, i have never really felt like i had anything to prove but always tried to prove myself anyways normally in a way that is socially unacceptable and i was trying to impress for the most part worthless weak kneed street sissy's that were not even worth it

but this time i do have something to prove, not only to my family and myself but all of the cops, and religious hypocrites that look down on me or judge me so just sit back hold my beer and watch this shit 

hold my joint and watch this shit

so i am officially the teachers pet, how the fuck do u like me now who would have ever thought that joe powers would ever be the teachers pet the class over achiever i was so happy after class tonight it really really feels good

git er done

so i actually got quite a bit done on my paper tonight so that rocks any ways thats it just thought id share in my happiness

STILL WORKING ON IT

so im still working on this paper, hell im only 5 sentances into my paper but before i get to far on it there are some things i want to ask my teacher tomorrow and then also some things i want to ask my english teacher thursday about my sociology paper so im just taking my time and trying not to frazzel out

i'm all about this honor student shit, let all those bastards that wanted to suspend me look at me now.

shit you can slow me down, but you cant hold me down cause ill keep on soldier steppin as long as im around

reaction paper

so i'm doing this reaction paper on homeless war hero's for sociology and it is kinda kicking my ass cause i have so much to say and so much info but im having a hard time putting it in the right order and im not quite sure how to integrate my intro which is a review or my summary of the article with the facts and information that i have found and keep my paper flowing to the conclusion which is my reaction to the articles i have found

yeah i know cry about it, and maybe i will lol nah just venting i mean hell the paper is only worth half of my grade in sociology

but all bull shit aside my paper will rock my mind just froze up for the evening hell i worked ten hours and then came right home to the books but i better get off of here and get some sleep

research

im just up doing some research for my next paper and thought id take a little break to let the world know how its coming you know im real good at this school thing

i keep telling my mom im gonna make getting a 4.0 look easy and who knows i probably will im a pretty intelligent individual who can do anything that i set my mind to any ways back to the studying i go

i'm so proud of you

nonie pony i'm so proud of you hell of us were doing it lil sister when i start graduate school im gonna go on a scholarship to i dont know what school yet but a good one and im gonna get the whole experience, i believe that i believe my grades will get me pardoned of my felonies and a scholarship cause i am smart and im gonna go at this school counseling and writing shit like i went at learning how to cook dope or hustle folks but i just wanted u to know im proud of u lil sister

just wanna spend the rest of my life w/ you

alot of women have said those words and not meant it, why are people so fake?Where are all of the ride or die right by your side individuals at? are there really so few of us

anyways enough of that i went to meet jays sister today and his grandma they came with gary and judy jays parents and jess and julia jays widow and her daughter

it makes me happy that my writing has touched them and that they find comfort in me like i find comfort in them i feel so bad for their loss and have grown very close to them