just aint right

why are women willing to use their kids in their little relationship games,that shit aint even right?michelles oldest son called last night,i hadn't got to talk to him in 6 months.even tho i love her kids personally i think that it is low to involve them again.when michelle and i were together it was one of the first times her boys had  love and stability in their lives, and michelle left tearing their world apart again. i just dont want any part of her boys going through hurt,or pain or loss.they have had plenty of that in their lives.

FREE MAN

HELLO WORLD I'M FINALLY A FREE MAN

  the last year has been hell , and i'm not one to complain,because even though things happen that are beyond are control,most of the times when life is hard or you are having problem most of the time they are self inflicted and you are just suffering the consequences of your actions that being said just because you are suffering the consequence of an action doesn't necessarely mean that your action was wrong' it just means that it comes with a consequence. like my parole officer could have thrown me back in prison for 4 months now, cause i failed a u/a and told him then and several other times i was not gonna quit, he could throw me back in prison and i would smoke weed in there, that decision that i made could have carried the consequence of another year in prison.that being said i believe this fewer and fewer young people even know what they believe or if they do believe something very rarley can they tell you why.i believe what i believe i believe the BIBLE to be true, and CHRIST to be king, i dont believe that i need to quit smoking pot,and yes i do believe in spanking kids.i heard a 5 year old curse his mother one day and i wanted to smack the kid.and i believe that when a man finds his beliefs in life he should be willing to fight and die for them.any ways blah blah blah my 2 cents for the day

WORDS FROM A STRANGER

                       WORDS FROM A  STRANGER , WHO HAS MADE HERSELF MY FRIEND. WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT HELPING THIS BROKEN HEART TO MEND. SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN,WHEN I LOOK AT HER, NO WORDS COULD EVEN DESCRIBE,THE WAY SHE MAKES ME FEEL INSIDE.I NO LONGER FEEL SO BROKEN  OR LOST IN THIS WORLD,SO AMANDA I HOPE YOUR PREPARED, CAUSE I'M GONNA MAKE YOU MY GIRL.

good morning world

well good morning world,hopefully tommorrow will be my last day on parole.the last 6 months has been really reallty fuckin hard,after michelle left  i just couldnt seem to care.my ex wife asked me to give us another chance after michelle had me thrown in county jail,but then she took off to kentucky while i was doing a drug assesment for parole.that same day my mom called my parole officer and told him i was getting high.the next time i went in he tested me and i was hot for weed and meth.i told him i wasnt gonna stop smoking weed but i would stop using meth.three hot u/a's later ,and he's talking about revoking me even for weed.here i am finally my last visit , and i cant help but wonder if he is gonna piss test me and revoke me for weed , and throw me back in prison for any where from 1 to 5 years cause i get high , or if he is gonna sign my release.i guess we will all know tommorrow, if  i do not update my journal tommorrow, i am on my way back to prison, but rest assured if i go back for smoking weed i'll spend every day i'm not in the hole kicking the ass's of all the child molesters,rapist's,and snitches i run across.so  until tommorrow peace out

isn't it tho

                  isn't it tho?what the fuck does that mean?well i'm not sure i dont know.was listening to wrong way , by none other,well u already know.thinking of someone i used to know, oh yes she's a ho.should have known better,didnt care about her past.like a fool so many times i took her back with a loving heart and open arms, would have given my life to keep her free from harm.

A POEM I WROTE AFTER READING AN'' OLD ANGEL CRY''

                        MY ANGEL HEALED

                    LAST NIGHT MY ANGEL CAME TO ME,HER WINGS NO LONGER TORN.ONCE MORE SHE REMINDED ME, OF HOW SHE'D KEPT ME SAFE SINCE I WAS BORN.SHE SAID''THAT SHE WAS THANKFUL THAT ALL HER BATTLE SCARS HAD HEALED,''AND REMINDED ME OF THE MANY TIMES IF NOT FOR HER,I WOULD HAVE BEEN KILLED.SHE ASKED ME''IF I WAS READY,TO FULFILL MY DESTINY,'' YOU KNOW YOUR FATE IS SEALED. YOU WEREN'T MEANT TO BE IN PRISON,OR STRUNG OUT ON DOPE BUT YOURS IS A PURPOSEFUL LIFE, ONE FILLED WITH LOVE AND HOPE.I BEGAN SOBBING, AND SAID'' IM NOT SURE IF I CAN,'' BUT MY ANGEL REMINDED ME, THERE IS NO PERFECT MAN

                                                            YOURS TRULY

                                 THE BROKEN HEARTED MAN

                                                          JOE    

PRISON POETRY

                                  AN OLD ANGEL CRY

   WHILE SLEEPING ONE NIGHT, I HAD A DREAM. IT LEFT A TALE TO TELL. I DREAMED I SAW AN ANGEL AND SHE WASN'T LOOKING WELL.HER BODY WAS BRUISED AND BATTERED,HER WINGS WERE RIPPED AND TORN.I SAW THAT SHE COULD BARELY WALK AND THAT SHE WAS TIRED;AND HER HOPE WAS WORN IWALKED OVER TO HER AND I SAID'' ANGEL HOW CAN THIS BE?'' SHE TRIED TO SMILE AS SHE SAID THESE WORDS TO ME.''I'M YOUR GAURDIAN ANGEL,QUITE A JOB  AS YOU CAN SEE.YOU'VE LIVED A VERY HARD LIFE WITH THAT YOU MUST AGREE.YOUVE BROKEN LAWS AND HEARTS,AND YOU SEE WHAT YOU DID TO ME.THESE BRUISES ARE FROM SHEILDING YOU. I DO MY BEST STILL.THE DRUGS YOU USE SO DANGEROUSLY,I OFTEN PAID THE BILL.MY WINGS YOU SEE ARE TORN AND RIPPED A NOBLE BADGE I BEAR.TOO MANY TIMES THEY'VE SHEILDED YOU FROM DANGER,THOUGH YOU WERE UNAWARE.YES EVERY MARK BEARS A STORY OF PAIN AND DANGER IVE DESTROYED,YOU'VE MADE ME WISH MORE THAN ONCE THAT I WAS UN-EMPLOYED.IF ONLY YOU WOULD EMBRACE LIFE AND TRY TO DO GOOD ON YOUR OWN IT WOULD STOP THE PAIN AND SUFFERING RTHAT COMES FROM BEING ALONE.I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE TO WATCH OVER YOU UNTIL MY STRENGTH FAILS.AS FOR WHEN THAT WILL BE ALL I CAN SAY ''IS IM GETTIN OLD AND FRAIL.''WHEN I AWOKE I THOUGHT ABOUT MY DREAM AND HOW MUCH SHE SEEMED TO CARE,THEN I LOOKED AROUND MY PRISON CELL AND MY HEART SANK IN DESPAIR.I WONDERED  WHY I EVEN CARED.THEN I LOOKED UP AT THE CEILING AND SAW MY ANGEL SITTING THERE

                                                                               AUTHOR UNKNOWN