man i feel like shit

my stomach started hurting last night about an hour before bed

and i've been up and down all night not to mention i think i'm allergic to one of these desert plants cause i've never had a problem w/allergies but every morning my dadgum throat hurts and my nose is runny for about an hour or two

other than not feeling well and my grandfather being in icu trying to recover from his gastric by pass surgery everything is great in my life

MAYBE I WAS WRONG ABOUT BEING WRONG

                     MAYBE MY ANGEL IS HAPPY

BUT MAYBE SOMETIMES I'M JUST A LITTLE STUPID

I GUESS I'M STILL JUST NOT USED TO BEING WITH A LADY

AND SOMETIMES I OFFEND HER W/OUT MEANING TO

I JUST WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I THINK SHE IS GREAT

AND I AM SO HAPPY THAT I MET HER AND THAT SHE HAS GIVEN ME A CHANCE TO SHARE MY LIFE WITH HER AND HERS WITH ME

maybe things are not as great as i thought

well i thought every thing was going great with me and AMANDA,but i guess maybe i was wrong.

she said i was insensitive and i think maybe sometimes i annoy her

i cant help it that i'm playfull,and i am one of the most sensitive guys i know because i do truly care what my girl thinks.

anyways blah blah blah

i guess i'm gonna go back to bed

was it me

AMANDA WAS CRYING LAST NIGHT AND SHE WONT TELL ME WHY.

i dont know if it was something i said or did all i know is there is nothing i can do to make it better if i dont even know what it was that caused it

she says that it does not matter but to me it does i f i did something to hurt her feelings i want to know so i don't do it again

and if it is not me i would still like to know so maybe i can do something to make it better

you can do it jay

a real good friend of mine left re-hab yesterday,he called me last night and i guess he smashed out a cho-mo{or for u that dont know that means child molester} jason is a good friend of mine and i know that he can do this.but if u are reading this a prayer or 2 wouldn't hurt

who knows

i'm fucking beat,ready to smoke a bowl and can't get any weed,but i got to work with amanda's step dad again today so i have given her 150 dollars this week end that makes me feel better i  have been having a hard time finding a job so i was starting to feel like a bum.but i have given her like 250 dollars this week. now i just hope i get a job or her step dad still has some work

at least i'm making money

well i never did find a steady job but i got to go hang dry wall at Amaada's moms house yesterday and today i'm gonna finish her office and help Amanda's step dad drop an engine in his truck