i called him soldier my partner in crime men like me and him well were one of a kind there is no substitute we can not be replaced i still remember the last smile i saw on your face i'll never forget you the good and bad times we shared
or the dumb shit we did like we didnt even care i'll wear a piece of you
on my right arm for the rest of my life and i still feel you standing
on my right side when i have to fight
my silent soldier death in the air
while i was gone i lost one ofe my best friends he was like a brother to me he was a soldier he loved animals and kids and the homeless he will never be forgotten by those who truly knew him for who he was
the last time i saw jay we had words he wanted to fight but i never thought that i would never get to see him again i love you brother
so i finally made it back from california i was at the fishermans wharf san francisco
i filled a spiral note book while i was gone but have decided not to transfer all of it
so my 8 to 10 day trip turned into 3 weeks but i made like 6 thousand dollars while i was gone well i grossed 6 thousand i only got like 4 but any how san francisco is beautiful i met a lot of people one in paticular who will have her own entry space everyone else i'll write about later
oh i bought a 2001 durango with the magnum v8 leather interior it's nice
so we leave at 6 am for san francisco my hotel is right on the beach,the room is free and i get money to live on, plus i'll be making between 1100 to 1500 dollars dollars a week bring home. i'll be gone a month to a month in a half.
amanda is back to not talking to me cause i fucked serena, you know what once again her loss i am an atractive young and single man with a good job buying land and getting ready to own my own home.
any ways serena left today she wants to try again but i can't , i wont she left when i needed her the most, not once but twice
and to my family, my heart thank you all so very much
so i said i didnt think i was gonna let serena rape me but she did any ways it's kind of hard to argue with unbridled lust and passion.
besides i am single and it's not like i was out chasing tail i had sex with a woman that i spent 6 years of my life with and had i not went to prison it would be 8 years, she hasn't been with anyone else which is more than i can say for myself or either one of my ex's since her.
i'm not gonna say my heart didn't flutter when i spoke with amanda and the boys cause God knows it did,but i can't put my life or even sexual desires on hold for a woman who has really shown no kind of interest in even talking about us having a future together
could there still be a chance or am i setting my self up for another heart break only time will tell
i know for there to be a chance she would have to come here cause i have a bad ass job that i'm not gonna give up land that i'm not gonna lose and a family that i dont want to live away from
