I'm sorry that i can not be there to say our prayers and tuck you in at night
I'm sorry that before you go to school I am unable to say goodbye
I'm sorry that I am not there to teach you how to be young men
I'm sorry I'm not your father but in me you have a friend
so i fucked up again in all kinds of ways so lets take a look at my latest bunch of mistakes
betraying the trust of my family buy getting high again and that is bad but what is worse is that my brother told every one that i would be fine but i was getting high
then my ex wife comes back into town and she came home with me
but see i have a girlfriend in san francisco i haven't known her long and we only had a week to get to know each other in person but i really do like her and now i have betrayed her trust
Duvacha if you read this before i tell you know that i am so so sorry i really do like you please dont hate me
so i met this lovely woman in san francisco not only is she extremely beautiful but she conducts herself as a lady and she is very strong in her walk with Christ
my only regret is not having more time to spend with her it was refreshing to enjoy the company of a sophisticated young woman a young strong christian woman.
we talk and text i just miss her real bad i cant wait for her to come and visit
people come and people go but soldiers live forever babies are born and grown men die
and on both occasions people cry
some people are real while others are fake but my memories of you no one can take
the times we laughed the times we cried the times we prayed Lord just let us get out alive
now i no longer have you in the flesh but i'll remember you always until death
i called him soldier my partner in crime men like me and him well were one of a kind there is no substitute we can not be replaced i still remember the last smile i saw on your face i'll never forget you the good and bad times we shared
or the dumb shit we did like we didnt even care i'll wear a piece of you
on my right arm for the rest of my life and i still feel you standing
on my right side when i have to fight
my silent soldier death in the air
while i was gone i lost one ofe my best friends he was like a brother to me he was a soldier he loved animals and kids and the homeless he will never be forgotten by those who truly knew him for who he was
the last time i saw jay we had words he wanted to fight but i never thought that i would never get to see him again i love you brother
so i finally made it back from california i was at the fishermans wharf san francisco
i filled a spiral note book while i was gone but have decided not to transfer all of it
so my 8 to 10 day trip turned into 3 weeks but i made like 6 thousand dollars while i was gone well i grossed 6 thousand i only got like 4 but any how san francisco is beautiful i met a lot of people one in paticular who will have her own entry space everyone else i'll write about later
oh i bought a 2001 durango with the magnum v8 leather interior it's nice
