good news that i need

after work today i got a letter from school, it was an invite to an honors fraternity because of my G.P.A these people will help with scholarships and everything

here we go again

so i got jumped the other night by 4 guys, and i guess u could say i had it coming maybe. this guy called me a pussy a couple of weeks ago, but i had my 6 year old nephew with me so i didnt stop but it really pissed me off so the next time i saw him i called him out but he wouldnt fight, any ways thursday night after class i went to this party at my sisters house and dude was there. some shit happened he called some people that came and didnt do shit, anyways friday i went to this dudes house, and i guess he is one of their cousins ive known him for years but didnt know that anyways i went into his bodyshop and shut the door down when i did my "buddy" locked the shop which was not entirely un common in the evening time but about that time the two guys that i had clled out and didnt wanna fight came out and another dude stepped up and they all swang out towards the end of the fight i thought i was gonna lose my legs but the owner of the shop and oldest of all of us stepped out and i was just fighting the two, which was okay i had that but out of no where the fourth guy smashed a motorecycle helmet over my head about the time i was going black i took one in the nose that woke me up and soaked me with blood any ways as im getting a hold of dude that smashed my nose the owner of the shop yelled its done, man im mad but i was glad it was done, for the moment he asked me if it was squashed, i told him it was, but hell no this shit aint squashed, plus it cost me my place to live so i have to move my Rv in 30 days which is fine i have land but i have school here for 8 weeks so for a month im gonna have to figure something out in el ghetto and for those of u who know me thats not good all the change in my life but i will always be me whatever that means i only grow and learn and mature, but realize i will always be striving towards what God wants me to be he knows my steps before i take them, so my mistakes are all accounted for in his book they are there before i make them and each one is like the potter with his clay, and every time it falls down he the potter re shapes the vessel anyways im rambling i need some sleep, but more than sleep i need some rest

BROKEN HEARTS

well i broke a good ladies heart and did not mean 2 actually i broke it twice my sister introduced me to this girl who fell in love, i told her i was not really feeling it ad she left crying, then i told her maybe we could move slow and take some time but i still was not feeling it so i broke up with her now she is heartbroken and i in no way meant to mislead her i honestly thought that at least she would appreciate my honesty, my sister rachel told me that she thought i was still hung up on amanda i dont think thats it but i do believe in fairy tales and candy wasnt my fairy tale. Im still doing good in college although i am not impressed with the paper i finished tonight but it is due tomorrow so even though im not impresssed with it im turning it in

A PRAYER THAT I RECIEVED VIA E MAIL I FOUND IT TO BE VERY APPROPRIATE

Dear Lord, I thank You for this day,

I thank You for my being able to see

and to hear this morning.

I'm blessed because You are

a forgiving God and

an understanding God.

You have done so much for me

and You keep on blessing me.

Forgive me this day for everything

I have done, said or thought

that was not pleasing to you.

I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe

from all danger and harm.

Help me to start this day

with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.

Let me make the best of each and every day

to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind

that I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper

over things I have no control over.
And give me the best response

when I'm pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can't pray,

You listen to my heart.

Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be

a blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak...

Keep me uplifted that I may have

words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those that are lost

and can't find their way.

I pray for those that are misjudged

and misunderstood.

I pray for those who

don't know You intimately.

GETTING CAUGHT UP

well i got my essay done last night, now tonight i have to finish my seminar paper and my study notes but im getting it all caught up so that makes me feel a whole lot better, college is only hard if you do not stay focused but smetimes i have a hard time staying focused. this week however i have to stay focused if i want to entertain any thoughts of making an A

DAY ONE

why can i not get this right, i am calling this day one, actually i have been sober for a couple of days but i was still coming down i started messing with this girl tonya, and before i knew it had been up a couple of days and seriously almost lost everything i have going for me. i broke up with candy last night but now i feel horrible today i never meant to hurt her i just was not feeling it and i wanted to because she is such a great girl and i know she would do anything for me, the thing is she deserves the same i dont want to settle just because she would give me everything i need i need to be able to give that to her as well. to me a marriage is an equal partnership and if i dont feel for her the way she feels for me than it is not really fair to her we have still spoken a couple times today i just do not know what to do

why is the answer never easy

so i have been talking to this girl in tecumseh named candy but she is trying to get serious way to fast and she is very needy of my time and i dont have very much time with work and and school and im really not feeling it. why cant i just have the fairy tale the good wife and a couple of kids, build a house on my land, i  was supposed to have my rough draft of my seminar paper done tonight and i didnt get it finished im not sure  if i can handle a girlfriend right now