good morning

not that there is anything good about this morning. i am un employed and i dont do that well, plus this girl i like in south carolina met someone thats good for her i guess any ways im waiting on mickeys boss to call me about work so i can go transfer my schooling oh fun fun im really tired of life kicking my ass but it never seems to let up. its all good however

already moving again

so i just got my apartment last week and now im moving again. i found out friday when i got my check that i didnt have any work this week, but i have work in shawnee so now im back to changing jobs and schools and everything. I'm just so tired of always moving i didnt complete one level of academics at anyone school and i was hoping to accomplish that at Redlands but now that to is shot all to hell. but to be honest it is probably for the best because i hav been having a problem staying sober in el reno, but i know everyone here and shawnee is so lonely for me even though my sister and brother in law and nephews are there and so is mickey dustins brother, I dont have any female companionship. but to be honest the female companionship i have been getting here in el reno i could honestly do with out. I really kind of like this girl ive been talking to on line which i know is kind of crazy because she lives in south carolina. but i like her a lot it always makes my day a little brighter when i see her on line. but anyways what will happen i cannot say. i guess i have to take it on day at a time and try to figure it out. the changing of schools is what is scarying me the most i just got to know all of the professors there and the people in the office and now i am starting all over again but know this im gonna make it i always do, cause why cause a country boy can survive.

pictures from new years

merry christmas jay

jays memorial on christmas 2008

carl the homeless man that saw jay die

and the man who waters his rose bush

jasons rose bush

me with jay christmas 2008

so i got my apt yesterday its small as hell but i had to move by the first im still tryingto buy these 2 houses, one for myself and one for my lil sister for hergraduation gift i feel so much better th last couple of days but this weekend will be hard cause its jays birthday rest in peace brother. i hav been talking to jennnifer a lot the girl in myrtle beach i thnk shes something else

not enough sleep

i was in bed by 9 o'clock but i tossed and turned all night i dont feel like i got near enough sleep, but now i have to be up for work and i feel exhausted physically mentally and emotionally. i just want to curl back up and go back to bed but i cannot. i owe i owe so off to work i go

I am your constant companion.I am your greatest asset or heaviest burden.I will push you up to success or down to disappointment.I am at your command.Half the things you do might just as well be turned over to me,For I can do them quickly, correctly, and profitably.I am easily managed, just be firm with me.Those who are great, I have made great.Those who are failures, I have made failures.I am not a machine, though I work with the precision of amachine and the intelligence of a person.You can run me for profit, or you can run me for ruin.Show me how you want it done. Educate me. Train me.Lead me. Reward me.And I will then...do it automatically.I am your servant.Who am I?I am a habit.


The author of the above is unknown, but the words are right on target. If you make good habits, they in turn will make you. But like the weeds in the garden, bad habits can take over your life. Make a decision today to pull those weeds.