starting my day

I slept longer than i like to but i have a freshman seminar in the morning as soon as i get off so i needed to get what rest i could when i could now im getting ready to have to go make my land payment and other responsible adult things blah blah blah the joys of being a working class country boy. i wanted to get up and take a trip to el ghetto but i was just to drained to many days running on just a couple hours of sleep but things always have to get done and im the one that has to get em done so i do anyways peac out and God bless

i dont even know why im awake im so fucking tired, actually i think im getting ready to lay back down for a few more hours there seem to be several days a week that i only get 2 to 4 hours of sleep so i better rest toda cause i have to work tonight and then be at the college at 9 in the morning

SO IM POSTING MY JOURNAL ON MY SCHOOL WEB PAGE BUT IM NOT SURE HOW GOOD OF AN IDES THAT IS BUT WE WILL SEE

inspirational truth

George Bernard Shaw said, "People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can't find them, they make them."
Well, it's pretty apparent, isn't it? And every person who discovered this believed (for a while) that he was the first one to work it out. We become what we think about.
Conversely, the person who has no goal, who doesn't know where he's going, and whose thoughts must therefore be thoughts of confusion, anxiety and worry - his life becomes one of frustration, fear, anxiety and worry. And if he thinks about nothing... he becomes nothing.
How does it work? Why do we become what we think about? Well, I'll tell you how it works, as far as we know. To do this, I want to tell you about a situation that parallels the human mind.
Suppose a farmer has some land, and it's good, fertile land. The land gives the farmer a choice; he may plant in that land whatever he chooses. The land doesn't care. It's up to the farmer to make the decision.
We're comparing the human mind with the land because the mind, like the land, doesn't care what you plant in it. It will return what you plant, but it doesn't care what you plant.
Now, let's say that the farmer has two seeds in his hand- one is a seed of corn, the other is nightshade, a deadly poison. He digs two little holes in the earth and he plants both seeds-one corn, the other nightshade. He covers up the holes, waters and takes care of the land...and what will happen? Invariably, the land will return what was planted.
As it's written in the Bible, "As ye sow, so shall ye reap."
Remember the land doesn't care. It will return poison in just as wonderful abundance as it will corn. So up come the two plants - one corn, one poison.
The human mind is far more fertile, far more incredible and mysterious than the land, but it works the same way. It doesn't care what we plant...success...or failure. A concrete, worthwhile goal...or confusion, misunderstanding, fear, anxiety and so on. But what we plant it must return to us.
You see, the human mind is the last great unexplored continent on earth. It contains riches beyond our wildest dreams. It will return anything we want to plant.

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so lacey pretty well blew me off last night and today so im cool on that, its been a pretty great day its beautiful outside and i have been kinda lazy and just enjoyed the day worked on the dirt bike a lil and just hung out with my sister. like i said just a peaceful lazy day. I got my durango fixed thank God, i hated having to drive my sisters car, i really dont like driving cars at all i like trucks or suvs any ways just wanted to jot some shit down for the day

now i remember

now i remember why i havent even tried to let a woman get close. I dont deal with rejection well and i think that the only thing thats gonna come from me persuing lacey is a broken heart and im cool on that. so im gonna just take a few steps back and if i showed her something that she thinks maybe she wants in her life then she can persue me that will be on her anyways i gotta go to work to keep on persuing this american dream that i know im gonna acheive

all night long

i tossed and turned all night long, yearning to be held in her arms
up very hour, my mind on giving her roses and flowers
we just met so why do i feel like this
not to get my heart broken i guess is my only wish
a lot of women have came and gone
in the last couple of years
for the most part none of them were even worth buying a beer
and damn sure none were worth me shedding a tear
but lacey has my heart all full of excitement and fear
i just gotta take my time i just gotta take it slow
but those who know me
well they know that just isnt joe
i guess we will just see how this story goes