sitting in class

so im in class supposed to be doing a test review but to me it all sounds like blah blah blah for real so i will just do this shit when i get home. i got to work yesterday and i have work for tomorrow but still nothing steady but I do know that GOD always provides and he never gives me more than I can bare anyways i better pretend to pay attention

why me always me

So I got laid off wednesday just when i thought i was going to be caught up and be able to move a trailor on our land in september. Now I am job hunting again which is no easy feat not having a license, being a felon, and being in college. when i find someone who will overlook my felonies they cant match my schedule and if they can match my schedule they cant hire felons. it is beyond frustrating. On a positive not Amy and I are great and honestly we have been doing much better since justin moved. sorry bout his luck but it is nice having our quiet home back. Just Amy, Cameron, and I. well im in class so i better listen lol

Been a while

so it has been a while life has been really hectic, I had taken in a 16 year old kid who needed help and this last weekend he went back to his moms who is still on dope. I feel like I have wasted a whole lot of time, energy and money. He hasn't even returned any of my calls. as for amy and I we are still good well im in class so i better get back to listening

hell yeah

so my buddy chris called me the other day he is in the band project 57 and just got off tour with korn and i believe he leaves with Lynard skynard this week anyways he is gonna see what it will cost to come play mine and Amy's wedding that will be cool an almost famous band at our reception.
so i took on a third job this week trying to get this lil apt complex in order if things work out i will be an on site manager with a salary but we will see only god knows what our future has in store all i knowis that i am completly satisfied it is so nice to have a help mate even though amy works full time as a cna she still goes with me after work to work trimming trees or roofing or these apt she is all about us
all i can say is thank GOD i have waited long enough and been with enough spoiled bitches and whores its nice to finally have a sexy lil country girl

Marriage

so Amy and I are going to get married probably easter of next year, whatever day she want the day doesnt really matter to me i just want to be married to her. I have been so happy the last 3 months happier than i have ever been i dont think i ever truly experienced love until now and now that i have it i never want to lose it

last night

so amy got super drunk last night and hit me in the face with her flip flop, then on the way home told me just to drop her and her kids off and me and justin could get the fuck out. she didnt remember any of it this morning of course i didnt leave i love her and knew she was just drunk or at least i hope thats all it was. when i told her what she had said she almost started crying. she has apologized like 20 times today im not tripping on it though sometimes these things happen well im in class i better get to taking notes college is a lot harder when your in love and u have kids to keep happy and fed and sheltered but such is life and even though college is a lil harder my life has been a lot more fulfilled

have i found my fairy tale

I hear people say they dont beleve in fairy tales, or that im a fool for still believing but i think i may have found mine. I have never been so happy in my life and on top of that i am clean and sober and it isnt even a thing no desires no hating sobriety i love sobriety and here lately i love life. I started dating one of my sisters friends amy and after i stayed the first week end i have never left. i gathered up my clothes to come home and amy was like what are you doing. she says im stuck she is never gonna let me get away. I hope she means it cause i could never have imagined such happiness could even exist, but it does and i never want to live life the way i used to when with her life is full of so much more.
on a not so positive note due to all of the drama last semester i wound up with a c on my transcript. i was so depressed about it for a while cause not only did i get a c but i also got a B i expected 4 A's but instead i only got 2 A's and those lesser grades i already mentioned but im okay with it now it is what it is and thats all it is