BROKEN HEARTS

well i broke a good ladies heart and did not mean 2 actually i broke it twice my sister introduced me to this girl who fell in love, i told her i was not really feeling it ad she left crying, then i told her maybe we could move slow and take some time but i still was not feeling it so i broke up with her now she is heartbroken and i in no way meant to mislead her i honestly thought that at least she would appreciate my honesty, my sister rachel told me that she thought i was still hung up on amanda i dont think thats it but i do believe in fairy tales and candy wasnt my fairy tale. Im still doing good in college although i am not impressed with the paper i finished tonight but it is due tomorrow so even though im not impresssed with it im turning it in

A PRAYER THAT I RECIEVED VIA E MAIL I FOUND IT TO BE VERY APPROPRIATE

Dear Lord, I thank You for this day,

I thank You for my being able to see

and to hear this morning.

I'm blessed because You are

a forgiving God and

an understanding God.

You have done so much for me

and You keep on blessing me.

Forgive me this day for everything

I have done, said or thought

that was not pleasing to you.

I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe

from all danger and harm.

Help me to start this day

with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.

Let me make the best of each and every day

to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind

that I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper

over things I have no control over.
And give me the best response

when I'm pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can't pray,

You listen to my heart.

Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be

a blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak...

Keep me uplifted that I may have

words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those that are lost

and can't find their way.

I pray for those that are misjudged

and misunderstood.

I pray for those who

don't know You intimately.

GETTING CAUGHT UP

well i got my essay done last night, now tonight i have to finish my seminar paper and my study notes but im getting it all caught up so that makes me feel a whole lot better, college is only hard if you do not stay focused but smetimes i have a hard time staying focused. this week however i have to stay focused if i want to entertain any thoughts of making an A

DAY ONE

why can i not get this right, i am calling this day one, actually i have been sober for a couple of days but i was still coming down i started messing with this girl tonya, and before i knew it had been up a couple of days and seriously almost lost everything i have going for me. i broke up with candy last night but now i feel horrible today i never meant to hurt her i just was not feeling it and i wanted to because she is such a great girl and i know she would do anything for me, the thing is she deserves the same i dont want to settle just because she would give me everything i need i need to be able to give that to her as well. to me a marriage is an equal partnership and if i dont feel for her the way she feels for me than it is not really fair to her we have still spoken a couple times today i just do not know what to do

why is the answer never easy

so i have been talking to this girl in tecumseh named candy but she is trying to get serious way to fast and she is very needy of my time and i dont have very much time with work and and school and im really not feeling it. why cant i just have the fairy tale the good wife and a couple of kids, build a house on my land, i  was supposed to have my rough draft of my seminar paper done tonight and i didnt get it finished im not sure  if i can handle a girlfriend right now

how can i be so smart and still be so dumb

how can i be so smart and still be so dumb, I know that God has preserved me for one set purpose. Now it is on me and has been for a long time and although I am doing some of the things that it will take to fulfill that purpose I haven't been able to do the one thing it will take

To Young To Feel This Old

So I broke my rib Friday I think, Mike and Dustin don't think it's broke cause I haven't went to get it x-rayed, but a broke rib is a feeling you will never forget and I had one that I had x-rayed, and this makes the third time I have had a broken rib. I dont see any need to go to the hospital though because all they do is give you pain pills and I didnt take them the first time or the second time and I dont need them this time. I will heal, although not as well as I used to.

The funny thing is how I broke it, I broke it the same way as my first one, wrestling with a youngster, my lil sister has this boyfriend who is traing to be a cage fighter so I wanted to see how good he actually is, and lets just say he earned my respect.

So my computer class is a little harder than I expected it to be, but I think I will be fine, I would do a lot better if i could quit smoking pot and drinking beer. After class when I needed to be doing homework I was drinking and smoking with Jimmy, then came home to do my homework stoned and half drunk. I only got one of the two assignments done then decided to write in my journal, but I have found that stopping when your mind says to and doing something that takes off the stress actually helps. When i try to keep going when my mind doesn't want to i normally just get frustrated and don't accomplish very much.

Well I guess gonna call it a night I have to do some attic work at 7 A. M tomorrow morning and like I said I think my rib is broke so you can imagine how much fun that is going to be