more drama

so if you read my journal you know I lost my job because a 300 pound coward tried to threaten me and because of his size or who he is I guess he thought that I would bow down except I can not bow down to anyone other than my king my savior, Christ the king,and my God calls me to be meek and mild and I try to be that but He also calls us to be assertive soldiers to his army see being meek does not mean being weak.The man that called me out is supposed to be a Christian and has a sober living home,but he is a racist and a bigot which at times I can be as well but I am not trying to parade myself as more than I am.Any ways his step son is one of my girlfriends friends best friend. I was at his house last night and he said something about it I told him what happened but felt tension and left. So I see him today and I tell him that I don't want my falling out with his friends dad to cause problems over here.He told me that he knew them for years and if some one gives orders he'll ride with some home boys to do whatever , cause josh is that man. I can not say anything about any man all I can say is I AM THAT MAN whatever that may mean to you but I have a dilemma and it is this. I am trying very hard to leave that man buried, retired whatever because I have been that man not because that man is who I am but who I have always had to be to survive but at the same time I know men that are more dangerous than me that would kill for me and all of that and this is non sense.To me this is a dead issue but I pray to my God who has always given me strength and wisdom and protection.To guide my heart and feet with his wisdom and protect me and my family like he always has before and as always grant me my strength when i need it and his forgiveness when its done.