momma

i'm sorry for the things i said but now you need to hear me

it wasn't your toothless punk of an old man that gave you money at the sands motel so we could get into a trailor but you threw me out soon after he got there

it wasn't him getting his ass kicked by carl trying to help you

for almost 12 years i've put up with his shit and i have been telling you how it makes me feel for like three years and ever since i got back i've told you he needs to shut his mouth before i kick his ass

i tried to tell you at sharons and you told me to shut up i went in the living and looked michelle right in the eye and told her alright i'm done next time i'm just gonna sock him

i guess i lied cause it happened again and everyone says i disrespected your house well i'm so fucking sorry but every muscle in my body was tense and it took everything i had not to kick his ass so i left not disrespecting you at all

but what did you do you wanted to follow me outside screaming and yelling just like you used to do to carl right before he would beat you

i'm sorry for disrespecting you i love you more than anything in the world next to nonie it is a sin but i think i love my sister even more than i love god

i hope i'm wrong about that cause if so that will be what sends me to hell but know this i would go to hell and back for her

but because of the night before last the next time i see mike i'm gonna kick his ass like he's never experienced and that sucks because it will probably be at thanksgiving well unless i'm not allowed to come because of that comment but he has proven to me that that is exactly what it's gonna take to make him shut up.and i'm sorry it has to be like this but you and him have made it that way

him because he can't stop running his mouth even to someone who could kick his ass with out even breaking a sweat and you for not telling him to leave everytime he starts and meaning it

i have not had a visit with you in 11 years without listenig to him put me down hell not even a phone call where i didn't have to listen to him in the background even when i was in california doing right

so i'm gonna ask you this who really disrespected you your son who out of respect for you has taken it for years when i could have kicked his ass at any time and made it stop or the sissy that you call a husband that won't do it on a job site or in his truck or even when your not home in fact he doesn't normally even do it when it's just me you and him

no the punk waits until my sister and mom and dustin are there why cause in my opinion he is a scary bitch

so at this point none of that matters because after the next time i see him he wont address me by anything but sir that i promise