just sittin here chillin wondering if this is all to good to be true. wondering when it's gonna happen, when for some reason or another everything suddenly changes and what happiness i have found in life is stripped and taken from me.or when i do something myself that costs me everything.

maybe i'm being silly or a little paranoid it's just that i've really never known true happiness until now

and there is a part of me that is having a hard time believing that it is real and not just some real cruel joke

i know that might sound stupid but after what i've gone through it is hard not to feal that way