Life is one trial after another and sometimes i wonder why me Lord. Why is this the part you gave me. Other times I feel so blessed that he loves me that much and has that much for me, then my doubts set in. they laugh and they say that what im trying to do is a joke how could someone like u do something like that. Truth is I know I cannot but I know that you can then I ask myself again why me. I cant do this everyone is against me my only peace is knowing that if u are for me then who can stand against me but they do stand, not for long why am i so weak in faith when you have shown me so much given me so much and protected me so often father i pray that your will be done through me that my stubborn flesh submit to the spirit of your will in the name of your precious precious glory i do pray that i can if not walk at least crawl in the likeness of his purity pauseing only to wash the feet of your salvation, the feet that i dirty with my sin and the blood that was given for it as well, forgive my weaknesses and grant me strength that i may continue the work you started in me, the fullfillment of your will for me that i may not be decieved by the accuser and believe his lies but rather ignore his meaningless shouts, and listen to your gentle whispers of wisdom and truth

ready for church

well im up and getting ready for church jason and rosie is going to pick me up because my car wont start because i havent made my payment im hoping that the catholic church will help me monday because im sinking drowning and do not know what to do. but i know this much im just gonna keep up my faith and know that God will not let me fail

ahh

so desiree left me a beautiful poem on my joirnal. actually everyday she leaves me a little poem on my phone it is really sweet and she has a talent for spiritual poetry that i love. Dakota called me dadadadada the day before yesterday that lil boy really loves my truth is i dig him as well, i have been doing homework all day, fun fun but i had been getting behind then it happened i got behind lol but im catching up on homework and rest

my silent prayer f the morning

Father let me understand the truths of your words, make my ways straight and narrow, but give me love from the great depths of your mercy. why you have chosen me ill never understand unless u show me. so my only parayer is let thy will be done through me

i like her style

so i like her style, she is patient and caring, i really enjoy her poetry and dakota is awesome. Im just taking my time to get to know her and let her get to know me a lil piece of my crazy puzzle at a time lol well onto homework

oh praise report rosie and jason are doing better i really hope they take my advice and get spiritual marital counseling i my sister and dustin take that same advice but my prayers are being answered my sister is drawing nearer to Jesus and His truths

so i have not wrote in a while

I am still leaning on faith and wondering how my past due bills fines and loans are going to get paid. I have been talking to a girl named desiree and she has a son named dakota who is 7 months old and he loves him some joe im just taking my time and getting to know her right now she is a really caring compassionate person. a woman who loves god and the things of god.

On a not so happy note I am worried about jason and rosie they have been having problems and i really think they need to get with a pastor and do marital counseling but that is merely my opinion but my prayers are with them

friends like him

it is truly a blessing to have friends like jason his wife rosie and their kids. The type of friends that help to keep your head, faith and spirit right. Those type of friends are rare and special and i count myself blessed evrytime they call or we are able to spend time in fellowship. Now when i say fellowship dont think i mean the churchy kind although in most ways it is. when we fellowship it is not forced or scheduled we can go fishing or just be in a parking lot and the Holy spirit moves and we fellowship through meeting the knight family so many truths of the spirit have been revealed to me. i will be posting some poetry that Jason wrote in the next few days so those who read keep reading cause it will be a spiritual treat

got mt rv home

so several trips and lots of hard work oh and the worries of getting pulled over and losing it all my home on wheels is finally home its not much but it is mine and that is what really matters right. well we are spending easter out here this year so that is cool easter at church and with jason and his family

putting my faith to the test

never in my life have I allowed my faith to run this long and far put im getting ready to lose everything and I do not know what to do. I know that I can not ride both sides of the fence but faith has not paid my bills. But even as I say that I know I am not the man I used to be and I am not so sure I can do the things That i used to do and even if i could i dont want to i like the new me and i dont want to go back to the old me like I have time after time