Life is one trial after another and sometimes i wonder why me Lord. Why is this the part you gave me. Other times I feel so blessed that he loves me that much and has that much for me, then my doubts set in. they laugh and they say that what im trying to do is a joke how could someone like u do something like that. Truth is I know I cannot but I know that you can then I ask myself again why me. I cant do this everyone is against me my only peace is knowing that if u are for me then who can stand against me but they do stand, not for long why am i so weak in faith when you have shown me so much given me so much and protected me so often father i pray that your will be done through me that my stubborn flesh submit to the spirit of your will in the name of your precious precious glory i do pray that i can if not walk at least crawl in the likeness of his purity pauseing only to wash the feet of your salvation, the feet that i dirty with my sin and the blood that was given for it as well, forgive my weaknesses and grant me strength that i may continue the work you started in me, the fullfillment of your will for me that i may not be decieved by the accuser and believe his lies but rather ignore his meaningless shouts, and listen to your gentle whispers of wisdom and truth