Thursday, April 19, 2007

MY WORLD

GROWING UP MY BEST FRIEND WAS ALWAYS MY LITTLE SISTER SHE GOT ME INTO A LOT OF FIGHTS AND EVEN GOT MY ASS KICKED SEVERAL TIMES.WE GREW UP IN A GOOD HOME EVEN THO MY MOM IS KINDA A HIPPIE AND MY DAD IS THE BIKER TYPE WE WERE STILL TAUGHT MORALS AND VALUES.BUT WHEN MY MOM AND DAD GOT DIVORCED MY MOM GOT WITH AN ABUSIVE ALCOHOLIC AND MY DAD GOT WITH A CONTROLLING BITCH .MY DAD ABANDONED ME WHEN I WAS 15 AND MY LIFE HAS BEEN A CONSTANT BATTLE OF ADDICTION AND SURVIVING ON MY OWN.BUT NO MATTER HOW BAD I FUCKED UP OR HOW CRAZY AND VIOLENT I GOT OR HOW STRUNG OUT I GOT THERE HAS ALWAYS BEEN ONE PERSON THAT NEVER STOPPED BELIEVING IN ME. THAT PERSON IS MY LITTLE SISTER ANONA, OR AS I CALL HER MY NONIE PONY.SHE LOVES ME MORE RESPECTS ME MORE AND BELIEVES IN ME MORE THAN ANYONE EVER HAS OR EVER WILL.SHE HAS MORE FAITH IN ME THAN EVEN I DO AND WHEN I THINK I CANT DO SOMETHING I REMEMBER THAT MY LITTLE SISTER Doesn't BELIEVE THERE IS ANYTHING THAT I CAN NOT DO AND THEN I JUST DO IT, I HAVE BEEN SHOT IN FRONT OF HER WHILE I WAS IN A KNIFE FIGHT SHE HAS SEEN ME FIGHT GROUPS OF GUYS SHE SAW ME CALL OUT EVERY NIGGER AND GANG BANGER ON NW 10ST OKC.SHE KNOWS THE HEART OF THE MAN I AM AND IF IT WAS NOT FOR HER AND MY MOM I WOULD NOT BE HALF THE MAN THAT I AM. THANK YOU PONY FOR ALWAYS BELIEVING IN ME AND I HAVE PULLED OFF SOME CRAZY SHIT AND I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE CRIED A LOT OF TEARS AND HAD A LOT OF NIGHTMARES BECAUSE OF MY LIFE CHOICES AND STANDING UP FOR MY Beliefs BUT THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME WHO I AM AND THE MIGHTY GOD THAT I SERVE HAS ALWAYS KEPT ME SAFE AND IF HE CHOOSES THAT MY TIME COMES FIGHTING MY Beliefs THAN MY DEATH IS STILL AN HONOR BUT IN SHORT THANK YOU NONIE FOR ALWAYS BELIEVING IN ME

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I love you! God don't ever take him first I couldn't take it that would be the end of me! That was so sweet thank you . Now as hard as it is to say it Carl after all we saw and heard  was a good man with his own demons to overcome and still hasn't found that way to overcome them. But he took good care of us and we needed nothing he busted his ass at work to give us a home and it was for the most part I heard alot of wisdom from that man that i wish I would of listened to then. Now I know you prob don't feel the same way but I couldn't ask for a better step daddy than Mike cause as much of a dick he is he's there no matter what he is and mom the two people (besides you baby) that we have that no matter what would drop everything at a phone call if we needed them. Any how I love you and I love our family blood or self made (Mike,Nikki,Alex, you know the ropes). Where would we be without them and each other? CRAZY THAT'S WHERE I WOULD BE oh wait I'm half way there. So I miss you and want you home with our family so bad but when you get here I want you happy on cloud nine. Love you honey.