if shes out there

i sure wish she would find me or i would find her or we would find each other. I have been talking to this girl but she doesnt want any part of a relationshiop she just wants to get together and fuck. what is wrong with that you might ask? truth years ago nothing was wrong with that and in fact that is the way i kept it. but im getting older and as sappy as it sounds all i want is my other half, the white picket fence a good woman and a couple of bad kids lol just kidding about the bad kids but you get the point i want my american dream. but sometimes i wonder if ill ever see that or get what others have or will i be a lonely struggling cowboy the rest of my life. im not really good at many things but i know this for fact im a hell of a man a loving, sensitive, romantic partner and i also know that if im ever given the chance ill be one hell of a father. ill be everything my fatheer never was. but blah blah blah stop crying i know it is what it is and thats all it is until its something different lol okay im exhausted so im going to bed