pain from the past

   wow memories and life can sure be painful at times i just got a message from my little sister on my my space,but I am not talking about from rachel or nonie.This message was from my little sister Searra, the one I was accused of molesting,she hates her mother as well.She told me that she thought that i was mad at her because not only did her mom file bogus rape charges on me but she filed a restraing order on me for everyone in her household.The next time that i saw searra my mother and i had been fighting and i was kinda on the streets.I needed to take a shit so i went to my grandparents house.we have never knocked at our families house so i walked right in  and my dad and his cunt was there and so was searra.Searra ran up and hugged me as the rest of my"family" was yelling at me to leave.I ended up walking to the school behind my aunts house and shit in between the buildings and cried wondering what I had done to make my father and grandparents hate me.I was only 16 and had the emotional scars of an old man ,I was all alone and to be honest I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die,but I couldnt because even though my mother and i were fighting her and my sisters were depending on me if not my mom nonie and rachel were,and I did my best to never let them down.Anyways so I never saw her again but now that she is old enough she is telling what really happened and even though it does not change all that i went through it still shows anyone who ever doubted me that they were wrong and they can suck my dick