independance day

THIS IS SO FUCKING YOU I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE MY EYES

so that is a comment my lil sister sent me and she knows you can't break me

and this is who i am to her and my nephews and my lil sister rachel

and that never ceases to amaze me since i have been a junkie,thief,killer been to prison but i have never paraded around like something i'm not always been honest and ready to die for mine something like a soldier

but i've been doing a lot of thinking i have let my family down so many times

and then get my shit together only to fuck everything off again

when i got back from california i had 7 months clean

and was not back a week

before i was getting high and hitting licks

then my partner tried to kill me so i called my sister to let her know what just happened i told her i would call in about an hour but it started raining and i had hell getting where i was going pointe is i did not call and my sister and mom went looking in el reno at houses they should not have had to go

because they know me and some of my friends, it kind of hurt my feelings that my mom and sister thought i was in a gutter dead somewhere

i was raised by them there streets shot,stabbed, run over three times

and this much i know you can't kill me till GOD says so

but i think i have a job building coils for electric poles it's 10 dollars an hour and cake

i can put a trailor on lot one and honestly i think thats what i need to do to stay clean

stay close to my sister