the next few entries are poems that i have wrote since i've been home, some i wrote after fucking up and getting high others i wrote just because i could not sleep and needed to get it out.they may leave the impression that i'm sad or depressed but that really isn't the case i feel pretty good except for the times i've broke weak and gotten high, i think about amanda less and less and i only allow myself to think about jonathan and jerimiah 10 or 12 times a day, no doubt about it i gave those boys all of my heart and they will always have their place there. but i'm gonna be fine and i'm gonna make through what ever life throws my way, i always have and always will