so for almost half of my life i have had to pay for not only my wrong decisions but those of my father.In fact most of my bad decisions can be directly related to my father and his decision to choose a woman and a motorcycle over me. Now my sister and my mom think that i should not tell him how i feel or that he has to make the right decision for once and admit his wrongs or not be a part of my life
I have made a lot of bad decisions that have hurt quite a few people but everyone of those people close to me have at least gotten the closure and respect they have deserved by hearing me acknowledging my wrongs and sincerely apologizing for them and i to deserve at least that.
now don't get me wrong, I love my dad and have come to accept the fact that he is a coward and has given up. I just can't keep living like this and carrying around this guiltless shame.It is not the fact that he abandoned me when i was young and scared and needed him most, or the fact that i don't get birthday or Christmas presents or even the fact that i cant call his home phone or go to his house he has never even apologized to me or stood up to his wife for me except once and that one time was at my grandmothers funeral
all i want is for him to act like a father
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i never said that you shouldn't tell dad how you feel cause i think you should but i think dad will never apologize or admit that they were wrong but i do think you should tell him how you feel
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